when i multitask I like to put something familiar on in the background. Recently I listened to a TedX Talk about depression/anxiety/multitasking. While my migraines returned to my life, a few months back, lately they've been chronic. Lately meaning since summer hit and the sun was out every day. Who thought I would complain about sunshine... i am still pro-sunshine and the color yellow
How migraines work in Isabella's world: stress (induced by THIS brain and its neural connections) = hormones out of wack = the body system gets confused = cystic (under the skin: but like red/inflamed/sometimes I feel people think I'm using again because of how irritated my skin becomes, but make up makes it worse so then my hands are tied again) acne = lack of sleep = increased heart rate = can't move from bed for hours due to head pain = glucose drops = migraine enters and stays for 6 or so hours at a time. Then it leaves, but it comes back! and then we do this again until i can fall asleep. i am counting the days for this to be over. reasons why I appreciate the future: it gives me hope the migraines will be overcome Halloween so I can focus on watching Hocus Pocus (kidding. kind of).
(personal reason i can't take medications for anxiety/migraines. in my opinion - they help short term. i rather work through it with CBT - cognitive behavioral therapy and a holistic approach = vitamins i'm not getting from food because i'll get nausea and can't eat). x = y = z = a = b = c = d = e = f meaning something is related to something else --- 2018 UPDATE - WE WILL ADDRESS THIS TOPIC SOON (topic of medication).
I did some research this morning to remind myself how to treat chronic migraines. I found out what works for me after working with neurologists years back. (The testing I had to go through determined: there are no clots/etc going on. it's just a migraine). First: Excedrin. For the caffeine. Basically: my migraines are categorized as "migraines with aura". I have to alter lighting, sounds, and smells. Too strong a smell and I'll start to vomit, too bright or too dim of lights and I will feel dizzy. If I am eating irregularly or restricting water, I will faint, and sometimes when I get upset enough over the fact that my migraine has lasted over its allotted time, I'll have a panic attack and get mad at my brain. THIS doesn't work. What I try to do is lie down for 10-20 minutes and close my eyes. I'll hum or talk to myself during the process. hoping the migraine will go away and talking to my head, asking it to stop >.<
When I get upset enough over the fact that my migraine has lasted days or hours, I'll try to go for a walk. If I can keep my balance through a migraine, I know it will soon be over. I'll challenge myself by walking up and down steps. That's the ultimate test. If I can get through a staircase, I'm en route to feeling better. Ironically driving in a straight line helps as well. Focusing on words or sounds, anything other than the sound of a pounding head temple. I've found that natural lighting is best, depending on where you live. If you live in the sunny states, I suggest playing around with sunglasses. at this point, I have 5 pairs in my car. so if you're sitting in traffic and see a girl in a civic changing her sunglasses 5 times depending on the direction of the sun, do not be alarmed. I'm just altering the lights. (maybe.... tinting my windows would help... that's a good idea). If you live in the cloudy/idk what the weather will do today states, try napping when and if you can. I've never tried a java lamp or one of those cool new lights, but that's an idea, too.
Moving on to the anxious part of a migraine or a headache (remember: most head related pain is due to stress or how your brain processes it. So 1 way to combat anxious, racing thoughts is to make a list! Write it out. Then figure out what works for you. Crossing it off, ripping it up, keeping it for years (yes Iam guilty) or? if you're a reader: "Organize your mind, organize your life" What works for you? It's a learning process to figure this out.
My brain works well with colors. Bright colors, it helps me remember how I labeled something. If I can recall the color I associated it with, I am quicker to find it. If I can create a shortcut, a folder, a location, or remember some association, it's embedded in my brain. your brain may not work like this. that's ok! are there associations you can connect when working on a task? simple or complex?
all my love,
P.S. update: i am in the works of creating a penpal system. heard a sad story today about a child who suddenly lost a parent. and i am heartbroken, again :/ all i wanted to do was give her a hug but 1) i'm miles and miles away and 2) letters/cards last longer than hugs do